Swan Song at the Wall of a Job

My midnight hour at this job begins with me writing out these words on my laptop and not knowing where I’ll end up on this page, at the end of this year, or really with anything in between. I’m in a stream of consciousness and a sense of creativity and flow that I haven’t exercised in far too long.

I want to write about sports, mainly my Chicago teams. I want to get back into the entertainment industry. I want to be more of myself.

This job was fine, it wasn’t ever something that I TRUTHFULLY saw myself staying in for the long-term, but it was for sure what I needed at the time. I suppose I returned to LA a bit too soon, still grieving over the loss of my dad to the virus, not realizing that I spent all that time at home helping everyone else heal and not taking the time for myself. The film sets I were on when I came back weren’t run by a good crew, and that definitely didn’t help me with where I was at.

But time has passed. I’ve gotten what I needed, it still hurts but I’m getting by each day a bit better than the last. I can feel the creativity come back in my brain. I’m more confident, I’m training and working out more, and I’m willing now more than ever to endeavor into the unknown. The only thing I know:

The Bears have a prove-it season ahead of them. The coaching staff needs to get us all to buy into what they’re cooking, I saw glimpses of good culture, hustle and grit last year, bur we all knew where we were going to end up anyways. Shoutout Lovie Smith, we got exactly what we needed. I have all my faith in Justin Fields, I think we have a shot at being the most improved team of the year by far.

The Cubs have been a pleasant surprise! Starters have been uncharacteristically consistent and we got some mojo going for us in the box (hehe). This team isn’t winning a championship, I don’t think, but it is making me believe that the front office has their eyes set on a run in the near future. We’ll see how the farm system pans out.

Bulls should honestly blow it up. Its such a tragedy that Lonzo can’t stay healthy!! The beginning of not last season but the season before led me on and broke my heart for the foreseeable future. I’m definitely willing to entertain trade scenarios for Zach Lavine, the roster as it stands isn’t able to compete with the top like HALF of the league. Idk how this new dude from Tennessee fits in, all faith in AK I GUESS, but when you come in to relieve a shit front office like GarPax the bar is in literal hell LOL.

Hawks got this Bedard dude, lets have another run. Idk, I’m not a hockey guy really but I'm all for parades and the early 2010s were lit lol.

I’ll figure out how to be more insightful with this soon. For now, I’m looking forward to sharing my thoughts out loud with the whole world to see.